Sunday, November 30, 2008
i felt im so useless..
after thinking so much.. i think i should be myself..
why must i always act so cheerful when im not?
why must i act friendly when im damn angry with u?
why must i not be myself and harm myself..?
my name is serene and im whom i am..
dun try to change me...
dislike me den "f" off my site..
i dun need u either..
if u think u r a queen/king..
so be it.. cuz to me.. u will nv be...
just do wadever u like and dun step on my tail..
i had learn to be myself.. damn you..
get off from my life..
The sweetness addiction that i need.
Friday, November 28, 2008
things always dont appear the way i want it to be..
arghhhh......................
headache is killing me like hell.....
i hate my 6th sense..
i wanna close my eyes 24 hours..
so i dun get to see wad i dun wish too...
tearing..
The sweetness addiction that i need.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
I HATE MY 6th SENSE!!
i dun wanna feel it, i dun wanna noe anything...
but im thinking it everynow and then when i see them.........
HOPE WAD I SENSE IS WRONG!!!!
imh...............................
The sweetness addiction that i need.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Happy Birthday 26 Bread PaPa Andrew!!!
&
Happy Birthday Jeny!!!
both born on 26nov... Best wishes for all 26nov babies.. =)
hope all have an enjoyable birthday!!!! cheerios~
The sweetness addiction that i need.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
HATE; ♥
somehow.. i hate my 6th sense.. i really dun wish to think.. but den.. once this 6th sense came to my mind.. i keep thinking and hate myself for tt.. a thing tt i noe i wanne noe the truth but i have to act as if i dunno and dun wanna care.. do u noe hidding is also a skill? i noe i didnt do it well but, i have to.. so tt "WE" can be happier.. which to me is NOT...
lastly, everyone around is worry and supporting me..
but i just make them disappointed...
how many times i wish to cry... how many times i wanna voice..
but i dun have the chance too... or i have no one tt can comfort me..
HOPE; ♥
i just hope i can leave all those to the past.. and nv wanna get it back....
it's painful, it's hurtful...
i have no one to accompany me trut this period when i need someone so badly~..
i have to hug my pooh to sleep everynight.. and wake up in pain... ALONE..
T_T tears rolling down but i have to be strong.. somehow i wish i can cry infront of anyone of u like a kid crying over a dropped ice cream...
GIVE UP; ♥
i think the time is finally here for me to stop everything..
like wad u said and wad i can see... u r happier without serene in ur life.. i GIVE UP and i mean it truly... if u r reading this now.. although i may still post about u.. cuz i need time to forget... just give me a little while more.. i hope u can treat me how u treated me last time.. when we first met online, the things we gossip, the topic we share as well as problems.. seems, even now.. u r the onli one i share my problems with.. T_T cuz i dunno how to voice out to others..
hope u treat me as per normal.. not soo COLD anymore please..
it make me suffer.. i swear i wont bring trouble to u.. and i mean it..
cuz i noe who am i belong's too... and wad i ask for...
it's a month already and u kept ur words.. =)
somehow scare i had been replaced.. although i noe i am...
im sorry... i need time.. tt's all.. i will recover.. =)
TOTS; ♥
im lost.. dunno wad i wan..... pple asking me alot of questions..
arghhh! i realli dunno and dun wish to noe.. leave me alone.. please..
tok to me all things other den wad is going to happen in 2 months time..
and i realli looking forward to overcome it.. and start anew 3 months later..
stop asking me.. u all are stressing me.. T_T
i noe myself.. and dun ask me anymore....
i dun wanna say doesnt mean im running.. i already noe..
and i dun wanna this to spoil my day can?
although i look happy everyday.. but IM NOT!!!!!
still.... again..... im tearing to sleep once again.... T_T
The sweetness addiction that i need.
waiting still.......................................♥
The sweetness addiction that i need.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
my love for you <3
i'm thinking of you
day and night
even though you don't speak a word
your voice is still in my head
do you know i think of you everyday?
do you even know my love for you?
i wish you knew how much i love you... ♥
do u noe how much i miss u..
im caught in this dilemma. which i dun wish too..
imy...................................
The sweetness addiction that i need.
Friday, November 21, 2008
my lunch and dinner of the day...REST DAY = slacking day.. therefore slack at home hahaaa
with tidbits around me.. nice.. cool.. and yummy..
I SIMPLY JUST LOVE TIDBITS!!!!!!!
The sweetness addiction that i need.
was blog jumping and saw this from LiJun which is sooo TRUTH!
so im here to share with u guys... .... .... .... ♥
{♥} Sweet-talks of a man is his greatest weapon to kill a woman by her mind , body and soul {♥}
Just a blow of a kiss , sends the woman down to her knees ,
Just a whisper of love , sends the woman craving for more ,
Love is like a deadly temptation that a woman can't resist .
The meaning , creation of love is still unknown .
But still , many fell for it even knowing that there's aint no cure for it .
Everyone fell for it , including me .
Fallen deep into it , yet hurting painfully .
Wake / cure me from this nightmare that I've fallen .
& Bring me far away from this hurtful place ,
never to return , we shall elope together as one .
The sweetness addiction that i need.
Good Afternoon.. wad an early post today..
had waiting for today for soo long that i wan my HOTCAKE MEAL!
and finally i got someone to accompany me to have my breakfast..
Thanks Buddy.. =)
After makaning.. headed to Evolution for Hair Cut..and this time round.. DAMN SHORT can? arhh.. i wan my long hair back..
hope this 3 months faster PASS!
den i can have my life back to normal.. arghhh....
but this new hairstyle is still not as bad as wad i had get in my past 21 yrs.. lolx.
still... i miss my slim and pretty long hair... T_T
guys.. hope u all wont vomit and turn off.. hahahahahaa...
i miss the way he used to praise me...
The sweetness addiction that i need.
hoping time to pass faster......
i want my life back... ...
imh.......................................
The sweetness addiction that i need.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
somehow suddenly recalled..
today is already the 20 nov 2oo8 le..
last month when we ended.. he told me..
he wont be able to find a gf so fast in a month..
so.. the one month is reaching... left with 2 days..
so.. is he realli gonna have one damn soon?
i wan to noe who is the she but yet.... im afraid to know..
damn serene.. *slap*
just wish to share his problems, happiness and every moment like how he used to share with me..
somehow i felt tt now.. im just a joker in his life..
a person he can make fun of, gossip how stupid i am..
i have no confidence.. i think im simply a failure..
somehow i felt im a topic of gossip between him and her..
we seems like stranger, yet in my heart imy deeply ♥..
The sweetness addiction that i need.
一半
yi ban
The Other Half
一直等一個人等了很久
yi zhi deng yi ge ren deng le hen jiu
Been waiting for that someone for such a long time
這一場獨角戲是很寂寞
yi chang du jiao xi shi hen ji mo
A solo act is so very lonely
春夏秋冬我的窗口
chun xia qiu dong wo de chuang kou
My window through Spring, Summer, Autumn and Winter
只有風經過
zhi you feng jing guo
Only the wind passes by
愛得深有多深
ai de shen you duo shen
Love deeply yet how deep is it
我也不懂
wo ye bu dong
I don’t know
你的喉我的心變得脆弱
ni de hou wo de sin bian de cui ruo
Your throat and my heart have weakened
聽一首歌也覺得痛
ting yi shou ge ye jue de tong
I feel the pain even after listening to a song
但我誰也沒有說
dan wo shei ye mei you shuo
But I didn’t speak of it to anyone
右邊的座位右邊的枕頭
you bian de zuo wei you bian de shen tou
The seat on my right, the pillow on my right
都已經空了那麼久
dou yi jing kong le na me jiu
Have been empty for such a long time
為你守候
wei ni shou hou
Waiting only for you
那是因為我已經看透
na shi yin wei wo yi jing kan tou
It’s all because I’ve finally understood
沒有你的愛
mei you ni de ai
Without your love
這個我只是一半
zhe ge wo zhi shi yi ban
I am only but one half
不哭了不笑了
bu ku le bu xiao le
Not crying, not laughing
為誰努力我也不明白
wei shei nu li wo ye bu ming bai
I don’t understand for whom do I work hard for
沒有人能取代
mei you ren neng qu dai
No one can take your place
一個圓的另一半
yi ge yuan de ling yi ban
One half of a circle
我固執地等待
wo gu zhi de deng dai
I stubbornly wait on
等風再把你帶回來
deng feng zai ba ni dai hui lai
Waiting for the wind to bring you back
The sweetness addiction that i need.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
argghhh... realli thinking about it....
i cant blame anybody but myself...
to be born unlucky... haii...
im simply unlucky
serene in progress..
looking into things and trying to noe wad should or shouldnt be done...
i have to change...
The sweetness addiction that i need.
Monday, November 17, 2008
ARHHHH!! tired is the only word can express fully the energy level i having now..
although just 3 days. just dunno why it seems so TIRED to me.. oppss..
IM OLD.. hahaaa yah i agree.. cuz everyone growing 1 second older in every 1 second..
hahahahaaa... Pictures update to let u all see.. how PS look like..
PS SHOP
THE GANG!
THREESOME!
ex-WESTMALLIES!
BUSY!
SLACKING RX! =.=
SLACKING JEANNIE!
Happy Birthday Jason... 16.11.2008
wish wish wish..
yummy cake. nice..
WAD THE ????
DISPLAY!
ROADSHOW!
CRAZY SAMSUNG PROMOTER!
lolx..
ACTING CUTE LEWIS!
okie.. had some fun.. and of cuz.. had alot of chit chat..meet alot of old coll. new coll.. nice nice..
but my sales there realli haii..................................
keep cashier. upsell no pple wanna take.. T_T
going back shop le.. haii.. no fun liaoo.. cuz have to face same old pple...
boring la.. but wad to doo.. i have to earn a living...
misses rx, emily, bryan suddenly..
realli felt so love at the rs with them around.. T_T
r/s is tired but dun end can??????
but of cuz. i miss "him" too..
The sweetness addiction that i need.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
im damn tired now.. dying soon..
i choose to work 6days non stop in shop den 3 days in roadshow..
TIRED but happy to see my old coll.. misses..
a song i heard while im working half way at r/s..
suddenly "he" comes to my mind.. i miss him.. and realli, this is how i realli feeling now..
i shouldn't love him but is just tt i wanted too..
cuz is the feeling taking control of me..
sometimes i realli dunno how to be fine when im realli not..
but to u.. im childish.. =(
the empties is realli killing me..
i wonder why im keep holding and waited for so long for the day
when i look back.. i den realize..
it's always there that is not spoken....
im waiting here and been waiting................................ right here for u to hold me once again..
Just So You Know
i shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away
I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop
[Chorus:]
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let em win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know
It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop
[Chorus]
This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here
[Chorus]
The sweetness addiction that i need.
Friday, November 14, 2008
continue working 6days work for 3 weeks..
tt's the only way to keep myself busy and dun think about anything..
and now.. im tired.. im seriously tired.. i do not have enough rest..
but still forcing myself to work as much as possible...
so i have no xtra time to think sooooo MUCH....
i hate the way he force me..
i can feel it..
but i noe he cares... *although im wrong*
imh & ilh...........................................♥
The sweetness addiction that i need.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Thanks A Billion To Kelly...
Customer given her JJ's album but she already had it..
and she know i wans it.. therefore, she gave to me.. muacks..
felt so loved by her.. my love love.. =)
On 06.11.08
we had a M1 Shop Farewell Supper at Bukit Batok...
had a nice and full supper but den.. of cuz. farewell supper will nv be a good one. T_T
i gonna miss them MUCH MUCH!...
Mummy Emily - although i dun realli understand you, dun have much time with you also.. but thanks for caring me alot.. =) i miss u and i love u...
Buddy RX - partner arggh.. going IMM take care of my jiejie lo. hahaaaa u will even having a harder time liao lo.. cuz i will call my jiejie to WAHAHAHAHA! u noe it well.. i will miss u de la. cuz no pple gonna pei me go home le.. T_T
PaPa Bryan - ohhhhhh~ having nice breakfast from you. =) and also nice chat while having break.. teach me alot of things.. abt life.. work and people around.. thanks.. =)
Cyn - always say me.. but... okie la.. u beta take care over there baa..
Boss - a new start for u again. jia you and see u around.. =) cheerios...
we gonna miss you..
good ones are leaving.. tears rolling down the cheek.. haii.........
when the bond is already there den we have to break off.. somehow it's more diff den having a break off in a relationship.. =(
hope they will take care although we stil able to see one another in M1.. muackx.. i miss u guess~
The sweetness addiction that i need.
][Only Reminds Me Of You][
Oh..Oh..Oh.Oh....
I see you, beside me
It's only a dream
A vision of what used to be
The laughter, the sorrow
Pictures in time
Fading to memories
How could I ever let you go
Is it too late to let it know
Chorus:
I tried to run from your side
But each place I hide
Only reminds me of you
When I turn out all the lights
Even the night
Only reminds me of you
I needed my freedom
This what I've thought
But I was a fool to believe
My heart lie while you cry
Rivers of tears
But I was too blind to see
Everything we've been through before
Now it means so much more
[Repeat Chorus]
Only you...
So come back to me
I'm down on my knees
Girl can't you see??...
How could i ever let you go..
Isn't too late to let you know....
[Repeat chorus twice]
It only reminds me of you..
no matter wad.. it's realli only make me reminds of you.. i just dunno why every single thing wil somehow link to you.. somehow u will appear in my mind. without knowing noe u r fine.. i'm not myself... used to have ur sms every morning.. afternoon and night.. but somehow all seems so far... seems like a dream... i hate myself to be so into u.. i hate it... but seeing u again made my heart peace.. i noe i have to be strong and i trying very hard too.. somehow like wad they say.. no one can help except myself... but i felt tt.. YOU can.. just ur support... i think i will live beta and happier... i love you..
The sweetness addiction that i need.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
imy..................................... ♥
The sweetness addiction that i need.
Friday, November 7, 2008
alot to say..
alot to mention..
but just tt i cant puzzle them into a picture..
im sad to noe tt but im glad ur sincere..
i make ur life worst when i tot i can share ur saddness, problems and tears.
im sorry my dear... i love you soo...
The sweetness addiction that i need.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
somehow.. my feeling told me something...
something very not good.. but very natural...
i dunno.. if it's the truth den i realli have no comments..
cuz cuz.. i felt it's sooo unfair to me..
hope my feeling is wrong this time round... =(
somehow..
i realli felt more normal and natural already...
counting down 5 days without tearing..
=) cheers.. cheers.... cheerios...
ur action still affect me to a extend..
but den.. is not like last time anymore... wow!
i think slowly u r out of my mind.. .. .. .. .. .
u r stepping out of where u r actually landed... =)
we are who we are now.. yah yah!
and i have THE MAN of my life... =)
but still.. i cant lie to myself.. i still think of our sweet times..
but it's without tear..... =) imy still.......... ♥
The sweetness addiction that i need.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
suddenly think of blogging again..
things running trut my mind when i see u..
i trying my very best not to think..
i trying my very best to act normal, act natural..
i trying my very best tok to u like normal..
but somehow scare i may say something wrong and make u dulan again..
like how i used to make u dulan in the very first place when i just knew u..
i trying my very best not to notice wad u are doing..
i trying my very best dun get to see ur action..
i trying my very best not to listen to wad u say..
i trying my very best get close and oso get away from u...
im realli trying my very best..
sometime, the things u said are not for me to listen or hear..
but somehow i hear and somehow affected me.. ..
arhhh.. no no.. i just felt please to see u...
cuz at least i noe u r save in one big piece..
knowing u r good and fine.. is more den enough..
although i dun feel good..
maybe just too deeply in love....♥
im swear.. i will try not to affect u tooo..
im sorry... im sorry... im sorry....
dunno why.. just a month..
and somehow i cant get u off my mind.. imy...... ♥
The sweetness addiction that i need.
Pictures For M1 D&D Halloween 2008 on 31.10.2008
Upload some only~ will upload more if i found out i miss out some interesting de..
=) Had a enjoyable night during the dinner time but not after tt..
but nvm.. just hope he is happy~...
serene seems happy on the outer layer..
but remember all.. just the outer layer..
u will nv noe how hurtful it is in the in-er part~...
so near yet sooooo FAR~..... i miss him still.............. ♥
The sweetness addiction that i need.
