Sunday, December 14, 2008
serene;1:31 AM♥
IM DAMN WORRY NOW!!!!! im tearing once again...
after chatting with my jiejie.. im tearing once again~...
im damn worry for "him"... im realli trying my very best for "him" but i think im wrong again... i will hurt him, make him xin ku or worst, even to death.. im realli a failure.. i nv be good.. nv be success, nv be proud of... im just worst den a dog...
wad am i gonna do.. no more long walking hours.. no more shopping like before..
i have to sit, lie and rest more.... which i dun wish too... cuz i will have more free time.
i still have to work.. so how am i gonna rest?
like wad my jiejie said... why must i everytime put pple in the first place..
it's time for me to learn to be selfish.. i noe i should but ended up still the same.. i will still help other den myself.. and ended up regret... why i just cant change to be more selfish?
SLAP SLAP SLAP!!! someone please scold me up again..
now realli worrying abt "him"
im realli lost. dunno wad to do and have to be done... T_T T_T
HOW?!?!?!?
although "he" may belong or may not belongs to me.. i still have to let him be happy and healthy~ tt's my job..
pray realli hard for the best~
serene is lost once again.. worst den b4... T_T *cry*
The sweetness addiction that i need.